I don't know for you guys but this year has been one hell of a year for me , with so much going on in my life good & bad and kind off i'm glad they both happened to me . it made me look the life in a different way and probably more mature way
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couple of days before the last winter vacations i had to move to a dormroom because i started getting depressed staying alone in an apartment . so i had to give up at the luxury i was used with and go to a private dormroom for students . it was a mix-genre dorm so they we were rooms with girls and room with boys which actually turned out to be far greater than i expected .
by the ending of January 2013 i met my roommate's girlfriend's roommate ( iknow it sounds complicated but it isn't ) ... they lived two rooms away from ours but i didn't bother meeting anyone there as i had plenty other girls who kept me satisfied . so basically they made me go out with them and i met her .. she was the most incredible person i had ever met .
Soon the midterm started and as i was focused to pass all my exams i didn't lose focus from her , and after the first month i had passed all mine and had another 3 weeks free from school to do anything . So as the gentleman i am i offered my help to her ( i had study math and informatics at High School and she was studying informatics at UNI. and since my country is way infront of theirs when it comes to tech. i was able to teach her a couple of things which made her pass two exams ) . after a week of spending every day with her and helping her pass the exams the weekend came . i asked her to our first date ( she didn't knew it was an official date )
a picture from that night :
although i had a lot of experience with girls this one felt special and i didn't want to ruin anything . so i decided not to do anything . we slept at her room in different beds that night . in the morning i went for a coffee with some friends and before i left i covered her and gave her a kiss in the cheek (which later turned out it made her feel way more special than i actually thought )
i had to go back home and stay with my parents for a couple of days so i had to leave her . i planned that i would go there on 14th of february and propose . but something terrible happened , she acted really cold with me , I basically made 300 kilometers for her and she went out with her friends and invited me with them . disappointed and with a broken heart i came back to my home ... but i wasn't going to give up . 10 days later i was going back there and i was going to ask her . so before i went there i made sure that we had a plan to go out that sunday ( JUST THE TWO OF US ) . more terrible things happened . when i arrived she informed me that her best friend at the time was coming too ( and apparently everybody their thought that i liked her :/ ) and after being the usual me , this wonderful creature thought that i treat everygirl the same . and tomorrow when i called her she didn't response , later that night I asked her one more time to watch a movie together at my room , since my roommate and her roommate (bf-gf) had went out and we were alone , so she accepted and about the half of the movie i kissed her . (Tuesday 5 March 2013 )
A week later we decided to change rooms and live together . Best & worst decision ever .
after 5 months of living together , tension had risen more than anyone could've thought . so we decided that we were going to spend my birthday together and than break-up .
There's no word that can explain my feelings . But she said that she wasn't happy and that it had to be over so i loved her so much that i couldn't say anything to keep her .
Let's just say having a lot of money , being depressed and having access to drugs isn't the best thing . This led to being arrested 3 times , wrecking my skyline and basically almost fall into the abyss .
With so much at the stakes , a close friend of mine made me go to a hitch-hiking trip to a virgin beach .
This is a picture of me in the top of Rodon's Cape
after 8 days a huge storm hit us , destroying the camp and leaving us without any food , drinking water and any means of contact for 4 days ... on the 3rd day the sun started to shine again and couple of fishermen came on the shore , giving us food and drinking water . The 4th day after the storm the 12th day of our journey we decided we were heading back to Tirana (the city i study ) and then tomorrow head back . once i entered tirana i contacted my parents and tell them that i was OK .
The next morning we started the journey back to my country . When i got back i was shot with the news that my dad was in hospital because he had heart problem . this devastated me , gladly two days after i got back he got better and everything was ok again .
i was still not feeling good , it had been a month and couple of weeks since my breakup but i loved her even more . so i went to a 5 day conference about open source and stayed with my brother , well as every big brother he tried to cheer me up and after 5 nights of partying and 5 days of conference i came back home .
but still missing her , i went to a festival which is an open air festival that lasts 2 days and 1 night and different bands and DJ make music through the whole time non-stop .
while turning my back once more from Albania and her birthplace i decided to call her . and after an hour of talking on the phone I realized how much she meant to me and that there was no way i was letting her go .
a week after this , i headed for Albania once more , the school was starting and her best friend was leaving for Germany to continue the school so i had to go there and meet with her and say goodbye since she had become a really good friend of mine .
While staying with my friend and saying goodbyes she insisted that she wanted to do one last thing for me before she left . So we went on her neighborhood and she went up and got my love and brought her downstairs . Shaking as a 5 year old who just found out santa doesn't exist i was able to say "Surprise" when she saw me . Without saying anything she jumped on my body and started kissing me
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it's been couple of months now and we're better than ever
. we're living about 25-30 minutes car drive from each other right now but we're planing a "reunion" in march
in meantime i got hired from an institution to make their ads and gradually got promoted , now i'm waiting to start giving lessons for Digital arts and Web design
For a 19 year old in the second year of University people who meet me say that i've done really great so far . but for me right now i'm just trying to do my best on everything
I'm really sorry for the really huge post . but this year has a really special meaning and i wanted to share it with the best community ever
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here's a picture of a Potato and a kitten for a proper apologize
Merry Xmas and Happy New Year to everyone